Twisted fate

To have someone who appreciate your presence is so hard to find nowadays. I cannot help but to say that the love of my life gave me such a handful of experience in being in love. I know that I have to face the challenges and dealing with misunderstandings and having to know that some people are different in a way of showing their love towards one another. every piece of hardship will worth it in the end. There's no turning back. I'm glad that I meet someone like him. 

I can't say that I'm not in love with this man, fact is I have gone overboard.  I'm obsessed with this man. I like the way he treated me, in a way he changed my mindset in the thought of being friends with people. How he asked me to change my male attitude ( yes, he did!) I mean its for the better. Right now I'm already in college and I'm wearing a freaking damn skirt! The only time I wore a skirt to college was last year and it definitely feels so weird. Its comfortable in a way though.  No wonder girls like to wear baju kurung because it's quick and simple. Yeah haha

Well, apart of thinking that everything is breaking down, I mean I still not capable of understanding his true behaviour. He is so far the hardest person to change. Which is a great thing for me. Allah wanted to test me how far can I go. InsyaAllah I hope Allah can give me strength in dealing this smoothly. Well. Despite everything, he is the one that I truly love.

Will update you people more later and I am still in love with you R :*

Lots of love, S.A

Happy 12th Birthday, Syaza Natrah!♡

On the 11th of January, my sister turned 12. Knowing that she's a grown up girl makes me feel old  despite the age gap between both of us is 8 years. We celebrated her birthday in an Arabic restaurand called Al Rawsha situated in Jalan Ampang. Well at first she was disappointed cause we didn't get her a cake due to everything happened last minute. Then when my dad gave her the present,  she was surprised because the packaging was very ugly. Why? I wrapped her present with newspaper. So this is her reaction :)

She have been wanting the polaroid camera since last year. The reason why i wrapped it with newspaper because my dad always say that just because something that is ugly on the outside doesnt mean that its not pretty on the inside. So that is why we always have to present good thoughts on something no matter what :) So to my little sister, have fun being 12 and i love you so much♡ lots of love, SA xx

Determination ;)

Well, hello there everyone ! How have you guys been doing? How is 2014 have been treating you? I hope that you guys are having a wonderful moment right now. Well for me,  I have the best of news :) why? Well I just watched 47 Ronin last Wednesday and I got so attracted with this one guy that has a full skeleton tattoo on his face. Well for me I find it interesting and I then thought,  why don't I try to recreate his look? Well I'm not gonna tattoo my face but well, I can try to use makeup to create the look. Then I tried the look.  For 2 hours and I got this as a result. It's not perfect but I think if I extended it for 3 hours I might have a better outcome. So here you go :) anyways hope you guys are having an awesome day ahead! Lots of love, SA xx

2014 for real?

Well hi everyone! How have you guys been? Firstly I would like to wish everyone a very Happy New Year! Let us all prepare for the goodness and the bad that we're going to face this year. Well, 2013 have served me well. Although there's ups and downs and difficult challenges I have to face during the year, I finally made it to 2014 :) to all the friends that I met during 2013, thank you for all the awesome memories and my love towards you guys are infinite. So I hope you guys have a wonderful year ahead of you. Have fun and lots of love,  SA xx

Hello there Octo-BAAAAHHHHHH!!!!

Well Hello there! We're finally in October! yayyerssss! How have you guys been doing for the past few months? good? bad? Well, let's talk about how my months been going on... Basically I would say a LOT of things happened. From practically college life, social life and definitely love life. oohhhhh. Well let's start one by one shall we? ;) My College Life? Well, I'm already in my second year in College!I know right? It's pretty damn fast and yeah, currently enjoying with what I'm doing right now. I'm taking 4 subjects this semester. It was all good but the days are just too damn ridiculous! I mean, I only have 2 days of classes per week! and I'm packed on Wednesday morning till the late evening and only 1 class on Friday. Crazy huh?Well, that's how we do here! haha nahh I think the college had some trouble or something since the new building has opened. And they have to like transfer people to go and work there so yeah. Well, let's just hope I'm doing well this semester!! ;) My Social Life Well, apart of noticing that people change from time to time. I get to know who my real friends are. Well,most of us are terribly apart due to different class schedules. So it's kinda sad.Okay there is one thing that bugs me. Thinking about this makes me kinda sad,deeply annoyed and irritating. In a way. Well, this is about taking advantage of people. No it doesn't pronounce good benefit in any way. Well,what is bugging on my mind is when people taking advantage of you when you have something that benefits them and sometimes can give you such unfortunate events. Common examples are cars and money. Well, when you have a car, all they want to do is hang around somewhere together. Well,that's the good part. Bad part? when asking for fuel consumption money. Some of us are shy to ask because we're not used to asking money from our own friends but please be considerate. We're still in college and our pocket money is given by our parents. If they found out we all go wandering around, would they even give us pocket money? Absolutely not! So please, little is enough as long as we all agree to pay for the fuel. Money? well borrowing is such a huge responsibility. Unless you guys are not really that 'broke', please pay back. We don't have enough money too. The second one is this one damn thing I effin don't like.When someone literally ask for your help and when we refused in a good way for some reason,they starting to make this 'faces'. These 'faces' like you know the rolling eyes, sad face, puppy eyes, spoiled looking brats and making this stupid harsh looks. argh pardon for my words. This is just too much! I mean get over it people! when people don't want to help you for some reason, ACCEPT IT! DON'T MAKE STUPID FACES!! There, I've said it. Be positive whenever they refused. Think that there must be a good reason. This is literally one of my biggest dislikes and I feel like punching them in the face for making those expressions. The third would be the people who can't keep their promise and blurting our secrets out. What's the point of telling us you can keep a secret? Are you guys trying to find our weakness? Well, if you do then you should go and see the doctor cause you have some trust issues. We trust you but you don't trust us. Well, sorry if from what I have been writing here seems so wrong but I write this because I can't stand meeting people like this anymore. Well, these are the things that bugged me in my social life. I have no intention in firing this to people but hey, if the shoe fits. Who knows? Go back and reflect yourself once in a while. I do that all the time . Love Life I know you guys have been dying to know what's happening.Am I right? well, I met someone. The End. Nahh I'm just kidding. Well, the meeting part was true. It's kind of a weird story though. He approached me first ( well,this is weird) . Then everything starts to fall in to place from-is there even something? to-what's going on? to-wait, something is definitely going on! to-go on go on go on go on! Well we are starting to get to know each other so yeah, still new though although we've been contacting for almost 6 months! And I'm meeting him again tomorrow (WOOHOOOO!!!) My goodness I'm writing this and not even mentioning his name I'm getting butterflies! What the heck is wrong with me? hahahaha well, to me he's definitely a keeper ;) ah man if he's reading this for sure I'll cover up my face and gonna be screaming real hard! hahaha So yeah, one thing is that not many people know about him so this is just going to be a secret for quite a while. Hehehe ;) So that's what happened during my day off from writing on this blog. Oh and I'll be updating you guys soon enough though. Hope you guys had a great time and enjoy October people! I heard there's going to be October Fest so guys please behave ;) Oh yeah, maybe I'll be doing some makeup for halloween soon enough. So that's it. I'm done and I need to get my beauty sleep now. Have fun guys and take care. Lot's of love, SA xx

Ramadhan ;)

Hi everyone;) first and foremost I would like to wish salam Ramadhan to all the Muslims around the world;) hope you guys are having a good one insyaAllah.

Well we all had a wonderful iftar yesterday. It was kind of my first time making plans and Alhamdulillah it went perfectly just fine. We reached at The Curve around 6 and Rickson and Afiq were waiting for us. Then Hazril and I went to buy a cake for Yasir since his birthday was today . Happy 19 Yasir! ! Haha but we celebrated last night. It was pretty weird because it was a Thai restaurant and the food choice was a bit complicated.  But overall the food was better than what I expected. We did some fear factor also since certain of us ordered spicy food and the food was over the top spicy. Luckily I only trid Afiq's dish.hahaha then after we had our iftar, I asked the waiter to get the cake.  Certainly Yasir didn't expect it. We all took pictures and certainly it was the best day of the whole month ;) I almost cried cause my plan actually works. Alhamdulillah ;)
I can't ever stop loving you guys. May our friendship lasts forever insyaAllah :)

Ohh and short note, after that we all went off and I kinda got to meet 'that someone' and we hangout for a while :) thank you love♥

I think thats just about it.i can say that this was the best memories that happened this month. Thank you Allah ;)

over the limit,July.

Hello people,how have you guys been doing? Hoping that you guys are well.Well basically l would say that today is one of my worst day ever. l accidentally hit my neighbour's car.I placed a note on his car.But he never called. haih.hmm what to do. l can feel that July gave me a whole lot of challenge and it's getting all over my head. l decided to have some time Alone.for two hours, l have the time on my own. l stayed in the car.Thinking that for all this time,l have been living to please everyone.
That is Why,I'm starting fresh.l need to be happy. So l have to let go Some of the things that I have been holding on for so long. I have to be strong. It's not going to be easy. I'm old enough to think whats good for me and my future. I tried to be someone people worth knowing but sometimes, they just dont like us.no matter what we do.
I have this bad  habit where I like to dissociate myself from people. It's not good, I know but now it only happens when I can't take any longer. When I feel really bad about myself. Thinking how I have been making things hard for my loved ones. What I can say is that, those 2 hours when I was gone, none of them called. None of them knew I was away. Only one person knows where I were. I started to realized that Allah has gave me a gift, a friend. Which I truly believed her. She's the only person I told my problems and she never stop giving me motivating advice.

Dear Allah, thank you for giving me such challenge. Its also for my own sake too. Then again  im off to bed. Thank you gor listening and goodnight ;)