Those awkward moments.

Have you ever been in a very awkward situation where you, yourself can't believe it's happening? Well, I've been through it a lot of times with unexpected people to be exact. The thing is, when I told people these stories, they'll think that its a made up story and not real. Well, because they were not there during that time that happened for sure they'll have thoughts like that. Sometimes you wished that you wanted to relive that memories because some of it meant so much for you. It's like wanting to watch your favorite show every single day. I have to admit, some of the people that I have experienced is to be honest wasn't expected. They have a strong image in life and I'm glad to know each and one of them. I have been through tough times too and involves most of the ones that I care about. I might have gone rock bottom, I finally get myself back up with some motivation and advice from people. It's true that you decide what you want your future to be but give a chance to people who gave advice to you because most of them take their time to do that because they care about you. Life can be weird sometimes. To be honest, writing about this makes me think a lot about myself. I am a very weird person to be with. I have multiple personalities that sometimes people don't understand me. I have expressions where people can say I'm a clown because I don't have a frown type of face. I had gone through stuffs where not many people experienced and those who knows my stories will know how I deal with my problems. I might be weird, but I have my own dreams and I am now aiming for it. People see me like I have this nice type of life but actually no one knows but my own self. I don't have a lovey dovey type of love life. It takes a strong person to love me and know how I really am. Now, I'm flying solo and I just feel that I'm okay that way. I was chasing people all these years and I just feel like it's not worth it. I don't expect much from people but just to accept my honest and faithful bond that I'm trying to have with people. I like random things and I dislike common stuffs. I don't go with trends and I like going out alone. Probably I'm used to doing stuffs alone. Well, I'm sorry for my randomness and once again I got lost with myself. Well,I have pledged that I'll be stronger and will aim for my dreams insyaAllah. If one day I was destined to be with someone then I guess that its from Allah swt and Allah knows what's best for me. thanks and Salam Ramadhan.