Happy 20th Birthday!

See this guy right here?He just turned 20 on the 27th! ahahaha We have known each other for almost 3 years and the best friend I've ever had. Although we've been through ups and downs, it's what makes us more of who we are and our friendship gets stronger each day! he's the only guy who can actually tell my emotions as if like he's a psychic or something. hahahaha Well, Hazril since you're a year older. I would like to wish you the very best in life and never stop spreading happiness to people! Even though we might not see each other for 3 months since our internship is starting, I wish you safe and have fun! Thank you for the years of joy and happiness! and again, Happy Birthday Hazril!

Those awkward moments.

Have you ever been in a very awkward situation where you, yourself can't believe it's happening? Well, I've been through it a lot of times with unexpected people to be exact. The thing is, when I told people these stories, they'll think that its a made up story and not real. Well, because they were not there during that time that happened for sure they'll have thoughts like that. Sometimes you wished that you wanted to relive that memories because some of it meant so much for you. It's like wanting to watch your favorite show every single day. I have to admit, some of the people that I have experienced is to be honest wasn't expected. They have a strong image in life and I'm glad to know each and one of them. I have been through tough times too and involves most of the ones that I care about. I might have gone rock bottom, I finally get myself back up with some motivation and advice from people. It's true that you decide what you want your future to be but give a chance to people who gave advice to you because most of them take their time to do that because they care about you. Life can be weird sometimes. To be honest, writing about this makes me think a lot about myself. I am a very weird person to be with. I have multiple personalities that sometimes people don't understand me. I have expressions where people can say I'm a clown because I don't have a frown type of face. I had gone through stuffs where not many people experienced and those who knows my stories will know how I deal with my problems. I might be weird, but I have my own dreams and I am now aiming for it. People see me like I have this nice type of life but actually no one knows but my own self. I don't have a lovey dovey type of love life. It takes a strong person to love me and know how I really am. Now, I'm flying solo and I just feel that I'm okay that way. I was chasing people all these years and I just feel like it's not worth it. I don't expect much from people but just to accept my honest and faithful bond that I'm trying to have with people. I like random things and I dislike common stuffs. I don't go with trends and I like going out alone. Probably I'm used to doing stuffs alone. Well, I'm sorry for my randomness and once again I got lost with myself. Well,I have pledged that I'll be stronger and will aim for my dreams insyaAllah. If one day I was destined to be with someone then I guess that its from Allah swt and Allah knows what's best for me. thanks and Salam Ramadhan.

Dreams.

Dreams are just a game of sleep and sometimes we can feel like we're in a dejavu. And also sometimes, some dreams has its own meaning.

Why do I bring up this topic?Basically i had the strangest dream. The dream is very unusual since it was the very first time I experienced it. What happened in my dream was i got bitten by a snake. It was pretty weird at first just to think of it but i do have read some of the dream meanings on the internet that is related to snakes. So this is one of the article that I can show to you guys what the dream is about.

Basically the article tells that if you dream of getting bitten by a snake, someone who is meant for you will come soon. Well, I might not know who's the lucky (or unlucky) guy who will be my significant other but I'll accept what has chosen for me. Dreams are only dreams and Allah's plans is something that us humans don't know.

I hope that things will get better eventually and hoping that I can get through everything since i have been going through a tough time before.

Twenty oh 2014

Hey guys, how have you guys been? I'm so so sorry because I have left blogging for such a while due to massive assignments and so on. Well last Monday I turned 20 ( yaaayyy) and well not many are sure when was my birthday. So last Wednesday we were going out for lunch and it was kind of a moody type of day when suddenly after lunch I was surprised by a birthday cake and the cake was like full with candles! I was touched since it was my first birthday surprise although I'm already old haha

The place was filled with laughter and happiness surrounding me. Thanks guys for making my day and my heart feels honoured to have you guys as my friend.

Twisted fate

To have someone who appreciate your presence is so hard to find nowadays. I cannot help but to say that the love of my life gave me such a handful of experience in being in love. I know that I have to face the challenges and dealing with misunderstandings and having to know that some people are different in a way of showing their love towards one another. every piece of hardship will worth it in the end. There's no turning back. I'm glad that I meet someone like him. 

I can't say that I'm not in love with this man, fact is I have gone overboard.  I'm obsessed with this man. I like the way he treated me, in a way he changed my mindset in the thought of being friends with people. How he asked me to change my male attitude ( yes, he did!) I mean its for the better. Right now I'm already in college and I'm wearing a freaking damn skirt! The only time I wore a skirt to college was last year and it definitely feels so weird. Its comfortable in a way though.  No wonder girls like to wear baju kurung because it's quick and simple. Yeah haha

Well, apart of thinking that everything is breaking down, I mean I still not capable of understanding his true behaviour. He is so far the hardest person to change. Which is a great thing for me. Allah wanted to test me how far can I go. InsyaAllah I hope Allah can give me strength in dealing this smoothly. Well. Despite everything, he is the one that I truly love.

Will update you people more later and I am still in love with you R :*

Lots of love, S.A

Happy 12th Birthday, Syaza Natrah!♡

On the 11th of January, my sister turned 12. Knowing that she's a grown up girl makes me feel old  despite the age gap between both of us is 8 years. We celebrated her birthday in an Arabic restaurand called Al Rawsha situated in Jalan Ampang. Well at first she was disappointed cause we didn't get her a cake due to everything happened last minute. Then when my dad gave her the present,  she was surprised because the packaging was very ugly. Why? I wrapped her present with newspaper. So this is her reaction :)

She have been wanting the polaroid camera since last year. The reason why i wrapped it with newspaper because my dad always say that just because something that is ugly on the outside doesnt mean that its not pretty on the inside. So that is why we always have to present good thoughts on something no matter what :) So to my little sister, have fun being 12 and i love you so much♡ lots of love, SA xx

Determination ;)

Well, hello there everyone ! How have you guys been doing? How is 2014 have been treating you? I hope that you guys are having a wonderful moment right now. Well for me,  I have the best of news :) why? Well I just watched 47 Ronin last Wednesday and I got so attracted with this one guy that has a full skeleton tattoo on his face. Well for me I find it interesting and I then thought,  why don't I try to recreate his look? Well I'm not gonna tattoo my face but well, I can try to use makeup to create the look. Then I tried the look.  For 2 hours and I got this as a result. It's not perfect but I think if I extended it for 3 hours I might have a better outcome. So here you go :) anyways hope you guys are having an awesome day ahead! Lots of love, SA xx